from the outside it looked like the only reason they were together was there addiction.. they were always just looking for their next hit..  she had him for protection and he had her to get money..
from the inside it was totally different their worlds revolved around each other and getting their next hit was just part of an ordinary day.. the only thing that mattered was being together and if that meant sleeping on the street or in a shelter they didnt care.. 
they were like a pair of lungs..

she loved the romance..
he loved the companionship..

and when they were seperated they fell apart..

so i dont even remeber the last time i tried to write... ive not been myself for the last few years.. trying to live a dream of a relationship that i thought may actually work out... and i lost who iwas.. then my doctor put me on pills.. 
and now.. im as close to being who i was as ill ever be.. and i dont know whether i hate it or love it..

its been 2 months since you left me..

and all i do know is that getting so drunk you vomit on your shoes od and end up in hospital.. and making out with every boy that looks your way doesnt fix a broken heart.. and it definetly doesnt make you feel any better... but every weekend i do it again.. 
 and right now this is what explains the situation so much better than i can..

Happy Ending lyrics MIKA

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love [repeat]

I feel as if I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together


everyone always says to me you were the perfect couple but i guess they didnt see the last few months of no talking no sex.. living in the same house but seperate lives.. the fact that the first time you hugged me in 3 weeks was when you broke up with me.. the fact is i hate you.. and i wish i didnt.. but i do.. and i pride myself on the fact i havent cried  but right now im crying.. cause i actually feel again.. no more dumbing down my emotions because you cant handle it.. you were the worst and best thing that ever happened to me.. and i just want you too know i knew you werent the sid to my nancy the boy from the past.. but i thought maybe just maybe if i threw everything in to this one boy.. maybe he could save me.. all you did was help me repress my feelings.. make me hide behind your back while i vomitted up everything i ate.. realtionships never work if they are based on lies.. or if you cant trust the person enough to tell them anything.. i wish everything could have beenlike it was back at the start when we used to argue and be crazy.. when we wood adventure on picnics and you wood send me real messages of how you felt.. 

ive deleted all your messages and pictures from my fone.. all the ones on the computer are in a file i never go in.. and all your stuff is in a box.. 

at least i know the last memory i have of you is this message you sent me

you believe you were drunk you were a dirty mess. i think ill skip on the talking things arent awkward for me but i wouldnt mind my cd's that were in your car. probably see you round some time 

thanks for the good times.. and the many bad.. thanks for being a cunt.. and for dating some other chick while we were still toghether.. 

theres a lot of fine women in this world not all of them will bring you lasgne too work most of them will just cheat on you...

peace Nancy